19th February 2014

                              Why am i thinking so much?Whats wrong with em and my mind?
                  Something is really messed up. I can't get through things. I am all tangled in millions of things, and here I am standing at the edge of my examinations. My brain wants me to think about lame things. Feels like I cannot control my thinking power. All the dumbest future predictions, that will surely never happen are coming in front of me again and again. I cannot get through the farewell issue. My heart is not ready to accept the fact that it's fine if I lose, sometimes.
                    Why does my brain wants me to plan the past again? Life is in such a great dilemma, What to do? and What not to do? How can I overcome boredom and my own brain? Why am I not realizing that I am in 10th and I have my boards in 17 days? Why am I not comprehending that I am not prepared? My inner self is not firm enough to stand these things. I can't even speak to anyone about what's going on with me! People would laugh. Every small thing irks me and my mood commands me not to study. Hope I could have traveled to future to get off my exams and all sort of mess that is in here, in my brain. Writing was the best option I chose, wrote down all the things. Feels a bit lighter. But still some things are so big and difficult to solve that to pen them down will take bottles of ink and I would be void of papers. I just want these two months to pass as soon as possible. I want to sleep forever, Calm down forever.  

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