LETTING GO IN JAIPUR-MANALI..
So, currently I am staying at Shuru, Manali at a friends place and this place could freeze me to death. For someone like me who has spent his last 18 years in Bombay where sweating and stinking is like our thing, coming to a place where you don't sweat and never stink is astounding. This Jaipur-Manali bus that I took on 1st November at 2:45 pm which reached Manali next day at 1:30 pm took my life away from me. It was almost a 24 hour journey that I will probably never forget. One of my very few and good friend talks about something called as "Me Time" well this bus journey gave me a lot of that. Time that I spent just staring at the sky and the trees and farms that left me and my company just like people did or maybe they still do. How I wish I could feel the wind if that bus wasn't Air Conditioned. I covered up for that loss on the beautiful streets of Manali. A very good critic of mine, expressed his thoughts on my last blog, much of which he didn't find relevant or unlike my other write ups, well Letting go, in Jaipur and Manali is about giving away the pain and sorrow that has been playing its tiny games inside me for a long while, sorrow that hasn't left anyone, oh I wonder how loyal sorrow and pain is to us humans! I wish the good and glee had the same loyalty. For someone like me or any other teenager who has ever felt left out or neglected or unwanted or thousands of such terms that would still not compensate to the grief that we feel every other day or to be called negative or fake or many more terms that I would still want to laugh on, letting go in these cities has helped me become better than what I was! I choose to write about pain and the struggles of teenage because many who don't will read them and know that they are not alone and still feel that the hardship they go through isn't the world's most fatal battle. Remember, there is always someone who is struggling and fighting worse scenarios than you do, but don't forget every pain can be turned into happiness. You must have heard so many saying, "This too shall pass" or
"The sun will rise again" blah blah, believe them, they are right. Many a times you even hear them saying "Time will heal everything"They are wrong, maybe it can heal somethings, but not everything. Why don't we sometimes take that pain in our hands and throw them away while at the same time build a new story. Trust me, I know you wont, but try, while these two things simultaneously work. you'll feel better. After all, you need to feel better about yourself only then you can go on trying to make others feel the same. Most of my tragic past stories that I often revisit only tell me that the people I have had my most amazing days with are the one's who I had the worst one's too. The most common thing with all those stories is, everyone in it just tried to Move On, well that doesn't work my friend, Opps! my past* You gotta Move Ahead, I wish I could tell people how important it was to move ahead rather than moving on. Not because moving ahead is easier but it's the right thing to do. I am going to stop revisiting the past from now on, because for something to heal, you need to stop touching it. I took this trip all by myself only so that I could discover myself more than I do staying in my city. To feel less judged here, since people will judge anyway, anywhere. To careless of what I've left there in my city and the people who constantly make me feel unwanted, unloved and insignificant. I am not on a search to find the love of my life or all those things that broken and shattered hero's in Indian films search for, neither am I waiting for the people around me to change their attitude or behavior towards me. This system is going to be the way it is. I am just on a break to get better and come back to fight harder, because out here Mr. Lall from Manali says, "Bamane, YOU NEED TO LET IT GO!" Care less of the things in the world, care less of what people think about you, care less of what is happening around you. but care, just a little bit more for you. You have to get through this vacation called life. We all come one day to do this task called life and go, what happens in between is what matters to us. This vacation is not such a happy one. People leave in ashes and some get buried deep down in this soil. We are just lives of bones and flesh, waiting to be loved. One day, Unloved and then again go on the journey to find love. Make sure your leave, will leave many hearts numb, of the work you did, the people you loved, not just loved but loved unconditionally, the memories you made, the battles you won and the faces you brought smiles on. We all decay, all that is left are the memories. I have spent last night on an empty dark road, standing at the edge of a cliff, looking at the lights that twinkled far away from each other and I looked up to see, Stars doing the same. They both enhanced the beauty of where I was. I have heard the blissful sound of the river that flows unhindered by the rocks. The breeze that hasn't thought even once before touching me. Are you the light in someone's life? Are you the river in your life? Are you the breeze that will be remembered till the last leaf of this earth falls? Are you Nothing? Are you Everything? Are you Something?
"The sun will rise again" blah blah, believe them, they are right. Many a times you even hear them saying "Time will heal everything"They are wrong, maybe it can heal somethings, but not everything. Why don't we sometimes take that pain in our hands and throw them away while at the same time build a new story. Trust me, I know you wont, but try, while these two things simultaneously work. you'll feel better. After all, you need to feel better about yourself only then you can go on trying to make others feel the same. Most of my tragic past stories that I often revisit only tell me that the people I have had my most amazing days with are the one's who I had the worst one's too. The most common thing with all those stories is, everyone in it just tried to Move On, well that doesn't work my friend, Opps! my past* You gotta Move Ahead, I wish I could tell people how important it was to move ahead rather than moving on. Not because moving ahead is easier but it's the right thing to do. I am going to stop revisiting the past from now on, because for something to heal, you need to stop touching it. I took this trip all by myself only so that I could discover myself more than I do staying in my city. To feel less judged here, since people will judge anyway, anywhere. To careless of what I've left there in my city and the people who constantly make me feel unwanted, unloved and insignificant. I am not on a search to find the love of my life or all those things that broken and shattered hero's in Indian films search for, neither am I waiting for the people around me to change their attitude or behavior towards me. This system is going to be the way it is. I am just on a break to get better and come back to fight harder, because out here Mr. Lall from Manali says, "Bamane, YOU NEED TO LET IT GO!" Care less of the things in the world, care less of what people think about you, care less of what is happening around you. but care, just a little bit more for you. You have to get through this vacation called life. We all come one day to do this task called life and go, what happens in between is what matters to us. This vacation is not such a happy one. People leave in ashes and some get buried deep down in this soil. We are just lives of bones and flesh, waiting to be loved. One day, Unloved and then again go on the journey to find love. Make sure your leave, will leave many hearts numb, of the work you did, the people you loved, not just loved but loved unconditionally, the memories you made, the battles you won and the faces you brought smiles on. We all decay, all that is left are the memories. I have spent last night on an empty dark road, standing at the edge of a cliff, looking at the lights that twinkled far away from each other and I looked up to see, Stars doing the same. They both enhanced the beauty of where I was. I have heard the blissful sound of the river that flows unhindered by the rocks. The breeze that hasn't thought even once before touching me. Are you the light in someone's life? Are you the river in your life? Are you the breeze that will be remembered till the last leaf of this earth falls? Are you Nothing? Are you Everything? Are you Something?
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